I don't remember this...

Sorry I have been MIA for awhile. I don't remember getting so little sleep with a baby. She is doing great, but everything else seems to be a mess. Josh broke his leg and it took 2 different doctors a week to find the break. He cracked his growth plate in his knee and his shin. So he has a full leg cast. With all the stairs in our house its seriously been torture for all of us! Jason had alot of time off when Emerson was born, but he has gone back to work. He wakes up so early for work that he cannot do any night feedings anymore. Today I feel like I have a little case of the baby blues. And the scares me because I suffered severe PPD with Joshie. Hopefully all goes well and I'm just in a funk.

Shes finally here!!! I am so excited ot have her home! I just wish we still lived by friends and family. I want people to come by and see her! We did have friends bring us dinner the first night we were home....yummy mexican food too!! Emme is having issues sleeping at night. She only wants to sleep on her daddy. She really doesnt care to much for me at night time. I am not really complaining about that..Im sleeping! I will post some pictures later. I did add some pictures to myspace. Heres the birth stroy for anyone who cares t read it...I just copied it from BBC.

Babies Name: Emerson Grace
Babies Gender: female
Date of Birth: October 4, 2008 @ 1:01 pm
EDD: October 17, 2008
Statistics: 8 lbs, 19 inches long



Birth Story

Friday I was in a pretty pi$$y mood all day, we went to a high school football game and I told some little high school kid I would throw him down the bleachers if he didn't stop stomping on the bleacher I was sitting on. (I'm not usually so rude) We decided to leave early because I really thought I would kill someone. We went to dinner and I started having contractions but refused to time them. I didn't want to get my hopes up. Once we got to the car I had one that was bad so we dropped off the kids at my parents for the night. I got home and called the Dr. They said get in a warm bath...if the contractions get worse, come in. I took a warm bath and they never went away but I didn't think they were strong enough to do anything. They were 5 mins apart at this point. I told my husband I didn't want these dying out so he had to "take one for the team" We DTD (sorry tmi) And they got strong, 20 mins later I was being admitted at a 4 with contractions every 2 mins apart! They never really hurt, I could talk and laugh through them the whole time. I didn't want to press my luck so I got the epidural around 3 am. I slept like a baby. I was too relaxed so the contractions stopped. The doc came in and broke my water at 11 am. They said I had an unusual shaped cervix (heard that with the last kids too) And they thought she was small because she was moving WAY TOO MUCH when they would check me. At 12:45 I had the urge to push and I warned my nurse I am a fast pusher. She didn't believe me...I refused to push until the Dr came in the room. I started pushing at 12:55, she arrived at 1:01 pm. She was 8lbs...my biggest baby! I had one superficial tear. And I was up and walking before 2:00. We went home the next day at 2:00. The kids love her and I am so happy to be home!!!

Do something or LEAVE ME ALONE!

For the past 24 hours I have had contractions. Steady, slightly painful, really annoying. I would be excited if they were getting closer or stronger...but no. They have stayed about 10 mins apart. I drank water and lied down to see if that would stop them.....no. Warm bath...nope still coming. Its annoying at this point because I can't go in to L&D, they are not close enough. I can't relax because they hurt. If i was further along and felt comfortable with baby coming this early....i'd be on my elliptical running my butt off!! Hopefully they stop soon or this is going to be a long weekend!

I did it!

Well as you all know this is my 3rd and final baby. I never got maternity pictures done before. Never really wanted to, but I have seen some of the most beautiful pictures on BBC. So I made an appointment to get some done. Saturday Sept 13. I have no idea what to wear, I love the ones of the girls in tube tops and whatnot but I cannot go strapless unless I want my boobies covering up my tummy! I'm thinking maybe a button up shirt thats unbuttoned on my tummy. I have to provide my own wardrobe because I am using a "new" photographer. The kiddos will also be in the pictures with me. Jason will not. He hates pictures and will more than likely refuse to do it! As long as I can get him to drive us there Im ok! I'm very very excited now!

The great debate...

As most of you know, I go on BBC often. Well there are some posts on there that seriously make my blood boil. And I'm posting on here instead of there because people can't just take someones opinions and leave it at that. Heres the deal....I willn ot be breastfeeding this child. I didnt with myother 2 and I wont be trying with this one. SOmeone started a thread about being proud to be a formula feeder...great, i like somewhere i can talk to other moms who chose to formual feed. But the women who beat feed (Great for them, I admire that they can do that) Can't stay off of it. They feel the need to give us all the facts about breast milk and how its better. Do you really think you are the first person to tell me that my boob juice is better then the formula..I mean really. And they way they spew off their facts comes off so condesending. Like we are retarded and can't make an educated desicion for ourselves. Then it becomes so defensive. I have NEVER gone onto a breatfeeding thread because I dont do it...stay of the formula feeding thread if you are against it! It just bugs me so bad! I am not a bad mom because I chose to use something from a can instead of my ta-ta's! I'm chosing to love and feed my child...shouldn't that be good enough. WIll my child be sicker or healthier than someone whos child was breastfed...no. Every child is different, being smart, sick, fat or skinny doesnt have to do with breast milk or not. And to insinuate that I wont have a close bond with my kids because I didnt breast feed are you freaking kidding me!?!? WHat about those mothers who despise breast feeding but do it anyway then resent their child for it, or the mothers who wanted to breast feed so bad but can't then they feel like they have failed as a mom. And I truly believe if people would keep their opinions, facts, statistics whatever to yourself...people wouldn't get so darn defensive abou it. I use formula and I'm proud....shot I even use generic store brand formula.....Call Child Protective Services....I'm a bad mom!

11 days until what?!

My baby shower was on Sunday and it was great! We were blessed by our church and friends. I could not be more grateful. I did not get alot of pictures but here are a few from that day.

So thats a few picture from the shower. And my husband wanted to be cut out of that picture because he wasnt ready for it to be taken..lol!
Well, your probably wondering what the title to this blog means....11 days. Yesterday I had on of my weekly non-stress tests. I do them twice a week. And my doctor came in and she looked at my chart and said, "Well, 11 days" I looked at her really dumbfounded like what. She said in 11 days you will be 34 weeks. We will not stop you if you go into labor! They are being cautious because I delivered my son early and had preeclampsia with my daughter. But just hearing from my doctor 11 days freaked me out. I could have a baby in less than 2 weeks. WHAT?!?! Now i'm sure I will not go into labor anytime soon. I'm hoping to have her around 37 weeks. I;; be very happy with that. After this shocking revelation from trained medical professionals I went to target and bought the rest of the stuff I needed. All we have left is a mattress and a changing table. (Still debating on getting a changing table) I have her closet organized and i'm trying to get the house in tip top shape. Just incase people want to come see the little one after she's here. I want my house clean. (I know, whos really going to be looking at my house when theres a new baby, but i'm crazy about people seeing my house dirty) Still trying to figure out who's gonna take my other 2 kids while i'm in labor. Lynae said she will do it, but I might want my sister there with me. Oh....11 days.....I keep repeating it to myself.

Alot to do today....

Well, tomorrow is my baby shower. I'm a little concerned because no one has RSVP'd. I know that doesnt mean anything but who knows. Its at our church and everyone from church is invited so we really have no clue how many people will be there. And that makes it very difficult to plan for. We are doing a cake and punch. I wanted to do some finger foods but without and estimation of the number of guest it stressed me out to no end. I had no idea how much food to buy and I didn't want to waste anything. Jason is really unhappy about the shower because I'm making him come. We invited men...how can I expect any guys to show up if the father to be won't be there! My sister has done a good job planning this shower. (I of course have given my opinions and input on EVERYTHING) She probably is ready to strangle me at this point!!
I'm pretty excited I'm getting my hair done today! I met a hairstylist through my online baby boards. My hair is getting too long for me to continue doing it. Its hard for me as a hairstylist to let someone else do my hair but these roots have got to go!! I did do hair this week, it had been awhile since I've done hair because I haven't felt so hot through out this pregnancy. It felt so nice to be creative again! And Courtney brought her daughter Avery over with her. She was the best behaved child I have seen in a long time. It gave me hope that Emerson might be good too! I feel like my kids have gone crazy lately. I'm so tired of arguing with them. It does no good. They only listen to Jason...I just don't understand it! Am I the only mother who can't control her kids?!?!